MY RANDOM THOUGHTS

Call me Dashing <3

2005-05-18T01:07:58Z

Heyyy!!!!

I had a WONDERFUL day today! Infact it was like the BESTEST day ever! Even if I am up to my ears in projects and I have a huge ass party to finish planning...but thats gonna be like the BIGGEST party of the whole year! People are gonna be talking about this party for like the next three freaking years! Stephanie, Katie, and me are definatly gonna be on top next year. We've already sold 4 V.I.P. passes at $40 a pop! We're NOT done yet! So freaking excited! And my baby LC is gonna be there! I'm still trying to think of a dress code for it though...I might not have one...

Haha Ok...so I'm officially done with XANGA...andd I got a FOTKI! I'll post the Link later...

ONE TREE HILL is onnnn!!!!!! I must bazounce! :)

I'M SO HAPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYY

WAHOOOOO

:D

Soooooo Tiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeddddddddd

2005-05-16T12:19:11Z

Heyyy!

God I am soo freaking tired! Seriously...Like I could fall over and die. I FINALLY figured out how to get my buddy list on my cell phone! hahaahah Yessss! So excited! I figured this out last night at like 12:45 haha ya'll are so jealous!

Mr.Rodgman decided to call my phone last night at like 11:30 and wake me up from my peaceful sleep...(Thanks Sam). He was calling to tell me that he just ate Pizza and he wasnt hungry anymore...Yea it was a completly random phone call

So anyways...I'm at school and I'm supposed to be working on my World Languages project...but I'm having too much fun cussing people out in Swedish....its like my new favorite past time! hhahahahah YES!

Alrighty well I'm off...

I LOVE U!!!!!

I' ve HATED today!

2005-05-15T01:36:48Z

Heyy

Today has sucked like no other...I wish I had to go to work today...I would have been a lot better off

&&&

I think that people at Calvary need to stop acting like I'm a freaking Devil Worshipper or something...

They just need to GROW UP!...infact I can name a LOT of people who need to grow up...And some of them are gonna end up getting the shit beat out of them at tabor for the way they behave...and I CANT WAIT!

Alright Well I'm out

I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!
(and thats probably not directed at anyone who goes to Tabor)

IBM lab...and severe BOREDOM!

2005-05-13T15:50:35Z

Heyy!

I'm sitting in the IBM lab right now, i'm supposed to be working on my magazine project...but when u have the internet in front of me i'm obviously NOT gonna do it! Anyways...I had to finish taking the reading portion of that test this morning...and I finished BEFORE the break...so I had like an hour and 20 minutes to sleep! So i kept dozing off...only to be woken up by the fact that I was freezing my ass off! I have no clue why I wore a skirt to school today. So yeaaa...

My mother made me breakfast this morning...shes been in a ever so happy mood with me here lately...like at the last minute last night she took me to go get my hair cut and she paid for it! I was like "umm...are u feeling ok"...cuz usually she'd make me pay for it. Eeep my hair is shorter now! Its like to my chin! Go to my MYSPACE and look at the profile picture...thats what my hair looks like now. And Lauren-O told me I reminded her of Snow White..so we've officially dubbed Carl Ryan Rutland, John, Dustin, Adam, PJ, Josh, and Chase my 7 dwarfs! haha I laugh!

Aww I'm gonna miss all my little chica's who are going off to Ragaygun next year! (REAGAN SUCKS!)...But thats ok..I'm probably gonna get shipped off to Forsyth Country Day next year...or an all girls school. At the rate i'm going with my behavior...thats exactly how its going to turn out too! So yeaaaa....

Only 10 more days of school left! So excited! (EVERYONE BETTER COME TO MY DAMN GRADUATION!!!!!...or atleast the party after wards....OR I'LL BE AN ANGRY LITTLE GIRLLLL!)Anyways...Katie is over here saying something about myspace...so I better go help her log on...I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M IN <3 WITH THIS BOYYY LIKE {{W.H.O.A.}} :)

LIKE O-M-G!

2005-05-13T11:30:33Z

Heyyy!

Ya'll I got my hair cut! It's like all one length now...Its like super short too...well for me it is! Anywho..Im not sad anymore...cuz I realized that I am loved! Even if I dont get to see him or talk to him for a while! I LOVE U!!!!!! ok...I gotta go make up the reading portion of the E.O.G.'s...Laterrr

I'll be on around like 11-ish

ughhhhhhh

2005-05-12T13:41:33Z

Heyyy...

Ok so I'm TOTALLY about to die of boredom...I have a 6&6 deadline due today and I dont even have 6 articles...my magazine is going to go bankrupt...but at this point I really dont care...At this point I really dont care about much of anything, except for the fact that I love him a lot! I swore I wasnt going to fall in love after John...but I have and theres nothing I WaNt to do about it. Even if I did cry...It doesnt matter...ok I need to quit whining...I love him...and i feel like its all falling apart...quickly...:(

It was all too good to be true....

2005-05-12T11:21:48Z

So like I knew it had to be...He was too perfect, it was too perfect. I knew that eventually it all had to come crashing down at some point or another. I am like super sad...and ive been crying off and on since last night...and we're not talking little tears either...we're talking MASSIVE tears falling. I was soo happy...I fell in love too easily...and yet again it all got ripped away...I stopped breathing for moments, and felt like i was being trapped in an airless room. I'll have to finish this later...I loved him though...and I still do! I LOVE HIM A LOT!

okkk.....

2005-05-11T11:19:16Z

Heyyy!

Ok so I went to go upload those pictures...and then they didnt upload :( . My computer is really screwed up! it like knows when I want to do something, and then doesnt let me do it! I want to cry...but i WONT.

Anyways...tonight is gonna be hott! I'm gonna get some freaking awesome MYSPACE pictures tonight :). SCOREEEE!

I <3 THIS KID LIKE WHOA!

EOG time

Ughhhhh

2005-05-10T01:48:20Z

Heyyy!

Well today was a normal Monday...I woke up, took a shower...got dressed...went to McDonalds for breakfast...got on the bus...got to school...went into the library...played on myspace...went to class...and then I died! Well No i didnt die..cuz I wouldnt be here if I did....But yea

So after school I had to drive to Saulisbury with my mother...cuz I had an orthodontist appointment. I'm sitting there playing with the background on my cell phone and all of a sudden out of NO WHERE she says (and this is how the conversation went...)
Mom:Do u know who Garrett Griggs is?
Me: Ummmm...(takes a long pause)...yupp
Mom:Hes a sweet boy, dont you think?
Me: IDK i've never talked to him...he seems quiet
Mom:Yes well hes a loner...u and him should get together
Me: Together how?
Mom: Ya know...date
Me: Umm..how about No?
Mom: It was only a suggestion...
Me:Yes well..I am PERFECTLY capable of finding my own guys...infact I'm pretty darn happy right now
Mom:I havent met this boy yet, and I have Garrett
Me: Oh but u will meet him...SOON!
Me: And wether u choose to like him or not is ur business...but I like him....A LOT!..hes better than Josh...or Steven...
Mom:It was only a suggestion
Me: Yea well a bad one at that
Mom:Dont use that tone of voice with me young lady...i was just trying to talk
Me:Ur talking skills could use help

So needless to say she didnt talk to me the rest of the way there...then I get to the orthodontist office...and they put A FREAKING CHAIN ON MY BRACES! and it hurts like helllll! Im on the freaking verge of crying cuz it hurts so bad! I have to wear ONE count it ONE rubber band on these two teeth...and it looks gay! And I swear when people see me they're gonna be like "OOO freakkk"

And I got so freaking stressed out today that I threw up for the first time in 6 months...I'm getting stressed with my mother, and ALL these projects at school, work, my social life, Me...And the fact that mrs.Hunter is ALWAYS asking me if I have an eating disorder when she knows damn well i was hospitalized for being anorexic/Bulemic in October...she Knows that! Y do u ask someone something like that?!?! ughhh...atleast I dont cut...yet...and even if I did no one would care...or atleast it feels that way right now...Girls are becoming backstabbing bitches when for once in my life i am HAPPY and its the happiest i have been in FOREVER! They're just jealous of the fact that hes so perfect and wonderful and that they cant find someone like that...but ive been looking FOREVER and ive finally found him...Yesss..and hes the ONE good thing in my life right now...I feel empty when I dont talk to him...and then the whole day is shot to hell...yupp thats how it is...

But on a lighter note...only 14 more days of hell left...then its summer. I swear we're not even allowed to go the bathroom by ourselves anymore..and I got in trouble today cuz my pants were too low and I was showing too much skin...they can frickin kiss my asss!

I'm out...I have to go Clean up my sisters junk hole of a room some kid is staying over tomorrow night...

I <3 one boy like WHOA!...and i mean like WHOA!

OH BABY BABY
*Drops the purse and screams!*

OOO and CARL RYAN RUTLAND NEVER TELLS ME ANYTHING ANYMORE :(...neither does Mr.Rodgman...it hurts...goshhhhhhhhhh (Napoleon Party at church fellas...get ur asses up!)

~Nicoldermila Alexander-Decker
(hell yes byotches using the FULL name...JEALOUS!)

Dui Algia Du Flicka...

So today was like WHOA

2005-05-08T01:06:49Z

Heyy

So last night LC came over and even though I had to work until 9:15...but when we got home it was a blast! Then this morning we went outside and took pictures..and then came in and uploaded them into myspace! So last night was AWESOME even though I didnt get to talk to a certain someone...(Cough*Beans*Cough)...but thats ok....

So yea I went to work today...and Meloday let me go home at like 6 instead of having to close again...needless to say my mother was pissed about it and has now just started to freaking attack me on everything..like "Teenagers shouldnt have cell phones...too many secrets"..oh and it was 8 so I decided I was gonna get on the computer considering the fact that I Havent been on it in two nights and she goes "getting on the computer no doubt"...ugh shes angering me to NO ends of the freaking earth! Why does she HAVE to make my life hell? is it like her freaking job or something? I think not..thats what teachers are for! Oh and I brought up the idea of my hair to her..and shes like "I let u dye it black...ur gonna look weird"...well she can freaking GET OVER IT! cuz im sick of black hair! Theres nothing shes gonna be able to do when I come home with it done is there?!?! No...and shes pushing me to the point of I SWEAR IM GONNA RUN AWAY!...but only if someone goes with me..im scared to be alone. Honestly I am

So like right now I want some Milk and Cookies Like WHOA! but Im too lazy to get up and go get them...and the fact that I dont wanna look at my mother right now unless I have to...So i think Ive bored ya'll enough...

I LOVE THIS BOY LIKE WHOA! <3...
-These words are my diary SCREAMING outloud-

La-La-La-La-La-La

2005-05-05T16:46:15Z

Heyyyyy

So I'm really getting bored with *Xanguh*...just cuz Ive had that thing since forevverrrrrr...After I shut down REDNECKGREENEYEZ (cuz I was closing the worst chapter in my life EVER!)...it just got SUPER boring! And I cant find a freaking Layout I like...I cant go premium (i'm too cheap to)...So I'm just updating this oneee.

Anywho I stayed home from school today...definatly faked sick cuz I'm like SUPER tired! I had a magazine deadline today...and I should be typing up people's articles...and my book report that was due YESTERDAY...but right now I just dont care...school sucks..and just fucking needs to die...winston-salem sucks...NORTH CAROLINA sucks!...I swear as soon as I get my license I'm outta here...I will move to either NYC...Laguna Beach Ca...or Georgia and Alabama (buy me a plantation house...and name it Tara). I'm not staying in NC...And College...Please I have enough money in my trust fund to get me through. Once I get outta NC though I might go to college, but I freaking doubt it...Theres only 3 good things in my life right now...The fact that LC came back into it and I talk to her like ALL the time now makes me happy cuz shes my bestest friend everrr...Beans who makes me happy like no one else EVER has...and the fact that there are only 16 more days of school left..then I have my honors assembly and im the hell outta there!

I need a hair cut...or atleast my bangs need to be cut...yeaaa...it sucks cuz my roots are growing in and they look weird compared to the black...I'm thinking about getting highlights for the summer though...but idk...I dont wanna go to the lake and start causing shit to go down...even though I am gonna go down there and just freaking ruin Josh Wishon...hes gonna get the biggest surprise EVER when he sees me riding around in my golf cart...Yes...Venegance is GREAT!

Tomorrow is Lauren O's booday..and I feel bad cuz I was supposed to go out to eat with her and Heather and Liz and Melinda and Hannah and Jenna and Shelby and Lindsay and Brett and Dustin and Ryannn (whom i'm sorry for slapping)..and then we were all gonna go see "House Of Wax"..but I have to work..and my mother wont let me meet them at the movies cuz shes being gayyyy....about EVERYTHING here recently!

Anyways this was a freaking long entry...about me and my boring self...Sorry for making ya'll read it....

Boreeeeedddd

2005-05-03T16:48:56Z

Ok..so im in school...in the IBM lab..."working" on my magazine project..well actually im not..im stalking people..ok haha so im not doing that either I'm just SUPER bored! AND tired! ughhh! Anyways...Yeah I have to go to church tonight for this gayyy concert that my mother is dragging me to...hmmm..IM GONNA DIE!

hahah I threatned John in the lunch room today...it was funnnn!!! whooopppp! Haha..Holla back Byothces! hahahhahahahahhahahahhahahahaha

My little background thingy....

2005-05-03T11:24:57Z

Hahaha thank you Beans! Oh..and yea ur little entrys are like ONE freaking sentence...hmm how interesting...hahaha